God seems to waver between wanting me to be highly confident and wanting me to be extremely meek. Those levels of humility may have little to do with my obedience and more to do with individual assignments.

Mighty warrior me has to be reduced down to her meekest levels when there is a direction shift in the battle plan. God can accomplish that by putting me in situations that have factors beyond my usual control and most abruptly in the form of digestive issues causing sudden anxiety. Yes, I have food allergies and intolerances that appear to be divinely appointed. Not having control of my own body takes me quickly into my most vulnerable position as suddenly as a flip of a switch. I’m thankful that only He has sovereignty over the on/off button. I trust God to immediately tame me before I (figuratively) cut the ear off of a Roman Centurion and to equally strengthen me before the rooster crows.

It’s during those less-than-victorious or remediating times that I want to be taken from active duty and allow others to fight the battles. I hate being weak and needy. I cannot camp out there long without feeling utterly defeated. But, God knows better than I do the version of me needed during any given mission. Whether I’m equipped for meekness or boldness, He arms me precisely for the road ahead. In this I must be content while remaining vigilant. Even Superman had to deal with Kryptonite. What’s your area of weakness that takes you out of the thick of battle and prompts others to step up in your place?

At times the strong leader must be held back so that others can step forward into their divine anointing. Understanding that perspective adds value to the sudden vulnerability, but shifting positions is difficult still. Reduced traction is sometimes for the purpose of holding us in place but also for priming us for an upcoming victory race. It isn’t intended to harm us. Instead it can harness our giftings and allow others to excel.